I am really SUFFERING and struggling to get through each day . Every day I hurt , I have so many Health problems, I really HATE MYSELF, THERE is absolutely no one that understands what that I am going through, for me to even talk to . No friends, no family, not even my Doctor. Plus I can not even talk on the phone with anyone , or go anywhere. My behavior gos bad if I hear laughing, because I wonder why do they get to have Happiness, and I get very mad. Every day I go with out the things I need to survive on. Because I have not enough money to get the thing I need . I am all alone and with no money in the bank or anywhere else, no Credit Cards, no money on hand. And because of all of this I cry every day . I wish I could feel some Happiness, but I have forgotten how. More and more I am having thoughts of suicide . , and that really SCARES me , I do not want to die but I feel that is the only way out . Sence my world is to hard and no one wants to HELP ME. AND I am so tired of pretending that nothing is wrong. Because no one cares anyway and so tired of explaining it to everyone and getting no where . I am a single elderly woman feeling like I am just hitting my head against the wall. And less and less I am feeling at there is a reason to stay alive , I am just so tired of it all. Desperately needing HELP . THANK YOU FOR READING AND GOD BLESS .
I live at 31870 NW MEADOW DR. , NORTH PLAINS OR . , 97133