Hi Ms. Georgia, I can sense you're anxious about your health condition. A lot of people feel this way when their doctor tell them something might be wrong. It's a normal reaction of human being. When you said "abnormal pap", do you mean cancer cells or precancerous cells were found? And your cervix was closed, I don't feel sure about the meaning but I guess it means something grows up there and make the cervix sealed, right? Then let's go find what this thing is at your cervix. Has the doctor arranged colposcopy for you? Take the exam, do the biopsy and you'll know what it is. Try to be strong, even if it's a bad disease, you need to be confident to beat it.